I need to get rid of everyone and everything that makes me feel worthless, because I end up believing that shit. And I miss when I knew how amazing I was, there’s nothing like that faith in yourself. I need that energy back.
I don’t like feeling like I am being lied to. It’s not often that I feel like the nice person that gets fucked over but I honestly do feel that way right now and I am not enjoying it. I don’t understand why people lie to me anyway, I feel like I am an easy person to be honest to.
I just wish I had believed Parker more.

Today was nice. It’s always so refreshing to meet and become friends with a decent (not to mention happy & positive) person. I feel like I’ve been meeting these kinds of people lately and it feels so nice that I want to call it a new chapter.

Random.

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I feel like

I’m finally breaking apart/down. Down. Way down. I feel worthless, unlikeable, like an idiot. What am I doing here? And who the fuck are these people that I call friends? And.. Graphic design, what a JOKE. Aau, what a JOKE. San Francisco and everything/everyone involved, WHAT A FUCKING JOKE.

I feel like I’m so sksjehsuskehrieoftpdlwj.

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All I have to say..

Is wow.

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I am neither breather nor speaker
I am neither walker nor sleeper
I am neither sister, brother, son, nor daughter
Solely in my chest is my heart a drum of water

I am under no disguise.

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Blah.

My friends are not my friends anymore.

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